Day 4. Every mother of a 3-year-old autie knows exactly what I mean when I say “AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!” Woo! Felt good to get that out.
Today sucked. If I can just speak openly and honestly about my feelings this afternoon… I was ready to open my top floor window and jump. Ok, not actually ready to do such a thing but you know what I mean. It was one of those days. You know the type. Two kids… one screeching like a banshee and the other wailing because of the banshee screech while the puppy whimpers to go out but won’t actually go out because of the rain so he’s stuck holding his pee and crying while I’m trying to shove rice cereal in a 5-month-old’s mouth while my 3-year-old is plucking ornaments from the Christmas tree and flinging them at said crying puppy. All the while that this is happening, I’m on the telephone with my father trying to explain how excited I was over another out-of-the-blue-could-be-because-of-gfcf accomplishment this morning.
By the time 11 came, Zack was in his room for an early quiet time, Zander was in his crib STILL FUSSING at me, and Sushi (dog) was in his kennel. I ran into my room and filled the tub with the hottest water I could stand and climbed in to cry for half an hour. Yeah. Supermom, huh?
I guess I know that every mother goes through days like this and the important thing is that I was able to step back from the situation and breathe without losing my temper. After my 30 minute sob session, I pulled my lobster-red body from the hot water, threw on sweats, and went to collect my still fussing baby from his crib. I took him into my room and laid down on the bed and nursed him for 15 minutes until he fell asleep and then went to release my frustrated preschooler from his room.
Boy, was he ever happy to see me! But, that doesn’t mean the day got any easier. It got harder and harder and harder… but because of my hot bath, I felt better able to breathe and keep myself collected until my husband came home from work and I had someone to cry to. I am so happy these days are few and far between lately. They used to happen much more frequently before I started cracking through this communication wall and pulling a few words out of my sweet autie.
Today was our first fully GFCF day! No mistakes, no accidents, no cave ins! Wooooo! Zack had a GFCF waffle with sliced strawberries and honey on it for breakfast. He had the rest of his chocolate almond milk and some grapes and marshmallows for snacktime. Lunch was half of a waffle with peanut butter and honey, peas, Lays chips, and the rest of the grapes. Then, he begged me out of Fritos for a snack. Dinner was skinless chicken with a GFCF honey barbecue dip and some fried potatoes. He didn’t get a dessert because dinner wasn’t until 8. That was our day. I can’t believe we made it through a day GFCF. It wasn’t the healthiest all-food-group-recommendations day but our first step was no effin gluten or casein so I feel accomplished anyway.
We also picked up a few groceries today. I found a GFCF teriyaki at Walmart! La Choy is the brand, I believe. Okay, I lied… my husband actually found it and told me I need to keep it in my bag for our unplanned stops for brown rice and grilled chicken at Teriyaki Madness. We were thrilled! I also picked up some colorful marshmallows, a box of EnviroKids frosted flakes, EnviroKids peanut butter snackbars, all 3 flavors of almond milk, and some totally GFCF vitamins with calcium added! No lactic acid!
It has taken me the better part of a week but I think I’m starting to get this down.